I'm going crazy!!!

As if this wasn't a stressful week already, my parents had my dog put to sleep yesterday. I have had her since I was in the 3rd grade. Long time huh? Next month she would have been 13 or something. But she was having seizures and it was better for her. Then I kind of fought with a friend's girlfriend over something stupid. She said something to the effect that me and my friend(whom I've known and been friends with since I was 14) should be dating instead of them two. Wouldn't of been so bad, but it was the way she said it and they were fighting. Made me really just upset. Made me think that she was being really fake towards me. Then today, this guy in the play with me made me kind of mad.....then he kept on....so I blew up at him. I mean I blew up. All of the guys that were back there were like, whoa, carissa calm down. Just breathe. So now my head hurts from getting mad and stuff. I feel bad for flying off the handle, but not bad for what my point was. You know? Even the director said that he probably deserved it. Well I am going to go. We open in 2 days!!!!!

So..

...11 days till the show goes up. So it's crunch time here. I'm so worried about my lines, plus I have to be moaning over this guy for half of the time, so it makes it even more difficult. Last night, I had problems spitting out my lines, while I was acting. It sucked. So the other day, I was going through a bunch of old papers of mine, and I found this one sheet. It had some goals in life that I had. Some of them probably aren't attainable, finding a cure for cancer, but there were a whole bunch that I have already done since I wrote that about a year ago. I thought it was kind of cool. So I think that I will start a new one soon. Well I'm actually at work so I guess I should be working huh? Not like I do anything anyways right. ;-)