Well..

So I came online to post yesterday afternoon, and I couldn't get to the web page for some reason. But it's okay, I didn't have anything really important or anything, that I can think of. But yesterday evening, before I had to be back up here for the play, we went to pickup film from Sam's that we put in like a week ago. So I am going through all of these, just expecting them to all be of the trip to Colorado this past summer. Well there was this one roll that the first picture is of me, making this weird face, like I have my tongue stuck out part way. Well, I was like hmm, wonder when I took that. Well I continue to look through them, and the next few pics are of me and I don't know when or why they were taken. Well I then get to these pictures of a party at my old job, with all the people I used to party with. It was so weird. Then there were pictures of Amy. I don't know how I got this film or anything. Then there were pictures of Amy's house at Christmas so I guess that I accidentally ended up with her film when I moved out. There was also a pic of me n Eric, ugh. Anywho. I think I was more upset about me being skinnier then than I am now. In the pic w/Eric, I am wearing this one pair of pants, that I originally bought to fit me perfectly, and in the picture, it was around the time that they were fitting rather baggy. Now I am not even sure if I can even put them on. I hate the stuff I did, but I think I might hate even worse that I have gained so much weight. See I didn't let myself completely go and get discustingly skinny. It looks good, at least in the pic, but now I have all these fat rolls. Now don't get me wrong I've never been the skinny girl, I've always been, let's say thick. I've always had extremely big hips, not fatty wise, just my bones sticking out. Also I've always been alittle more muscular in my legs and arms than most girls. So I never have been little, just not this big. It's gets me depressed. Man. I'm also in 2 weddings coming up, so I've got to do something about this, before I have to stand up in front of everyone looking like a cow. I also have to find someone to take. I don't want to feel like a complete loser. But I don't think that I can find any one who will sit throughout the weddings by themselves. But thats how it always goes, right? Anyways I have to go so I can pick up lunch for my mom, bro, & sis-in-law. They're bringing Hunter! Yea! Gotta love em! Peace!

oh yea, cast list gets posted today. I wasn't nervous throughout the whole two days of auditions, but now that it is time to look to see if I got cast, I'm freaking nervous. It sucks. Also only two more performances of Fort left!! Yeah!!!!