okay..

So it's been awhile, but I feel like I've been soooo busy here lately. I guess that I have been. Busy with school, busy at home. Whatever. All day today I was gone, running around. I'm so tired I think I'm going to pass out. I am getting so frustrated with my sil right now.(sister-in-law). I know it's like I'm a broken record, but I don't know how much longer I'll be able to stay here with them. Well I guess that I'll have to. No job = no steady income = no way to pay for an apartment. I guess on my last couple of posts I wasn't making myself clear enough. I didn't mean my complete honest thoughts and feelings like some of you thought. I mean that I don't ever express myself. At all. Well I do. But more often than not, I'll keep my mouth shut, and not say anything. Or I'll say, Oh it doesn't matter to me. I think that stems from my constant need to make sure that everyone is happy. Or remotely happy. I have no clue where that came from though. Well even though its only 9:30, I think I'm going to bed. Man I feel so old. Haha.