well.

For some reason, now that I have the time to actually keep up with this thing, I can't. Could be that I hate not having something to do, so I am always doing something. My Thanksgiving was good. I cooked. Most of it. My Mom put the turkey and the ham in the oven and stuff, but I basted them and cooked the rest. The only other thing I didn't do was make the coconut cream pies. I was glad everyone liked it. I always get worried that it won't be good or something. Last Christmas I made cornish game hens stuffed with rice. I was so worried that no one would like it that I didn't enjoy it like I should have. I am also making Christmas dinner this year, but we've decided to have seafood. Enough about that.
Life right now is good, considering all things. I am doing well in school (I think I might actually be able to get a 4.0 this semester yea!!), I am finally done with the play (thank you God!), and for the moment I am not fighting with anyone at my house. It could change though. Who knows. Well I need to do a bit of homework so I am off!!

What a few couple of weeks it has been. I am so drained physically from so many shows going on and stuff at school. I am also spiritually and emotionally tired in a sense. I've been struggling so much with trying to 'do it right' or get it down, following the rules, that I've exhausted myself. I just want to sleep and never wake up. Okay thats being drastic, but thats how I feel. So instead I'll wake up every morning and pray that God lets me see Him doing what He's planned, instead of me seeing what I'm doing wrong. Lord, please help me to let go of needing to follow the rules. You didn't give us your Son so we'd follow the rules, so help me to stop doing that. Help me to see the wonder that is You. Help me to drop all this nonsense that I have bouncing around in my head constantly. Help me to be alone with You. Not doing anything, just sitting and listening to You.
Well I am a bit drowsy due to an odd side effect of some DayQuil, so I am off to bed.