It is finished

So we closed Return to the Forbidden Planet today.  Another chapter in my life ends.  Try as I may, I'm still as upset as I ever am at change.  I hate change.  I really do.  But I love it all the same, so I continue to do things to change.  Not only in what I do, or where I am, but who I am.  I love that I have such a wonderful theatre family.  I'm glad to be able to call AC Theatre my home - even if I'm leaving again.  I have to say - it's not going to be much easier than the first time I left.  It is different yes, because I am not going off to another college, I am going to the real world.  I'm leaving this little nest I have - this comfort zone - and putting myself out there for everyone to see.  But in doing so I think I owe some words to certain people, so bear with me if you will. 
Ray - I don't know that I could ever thank you enough for introducing me to stage managing.  Thank you for making me take the job and making me work my butt off for the show.  I appreciate it dearly because you have led me to my passion in life.  Also thank you for always being there to make me laugh.  You may have something smart-assed to say, but it makes me laugh nonetheless.  I will take what I have learned from you with me all the way up to NYC and hopefully - somehow - someday I'll make you proud.  I will keep in touch - but you better answer my emails!! (Just kidding.....but seriously.)
Monty - Words cannot express how much you have taught me over the years.  Just thinking about saying goodbye again (and I know it must be done) makes me teary eyed.  You have not only been a mentor to me throughout my time attending AC - but you have become my friend as well.  I know that I will be fine in all I do - because somewhere in the back of my mind, I'll be asking myself - I wonder what Monty would do.  ;-)   Thank you for always being there when I needed someone to talk to and thank you for always making me smile.  Thank you for offering me a job - this year has been great in part to that (even if it was stressful at times.)  I'm going to miss being able to come to work everyday - knowing that no matter what we're doing - we'll have a few laughs while were doing it.  Thank you for everything.

 I leave AC knowing that I'll always have you guys as my theatre family.  I know that I can count on you for advice whenever I need it - and I might need it quite alot soon.  ;-)  I promise to make you proud.

Lastly - I know this doesn't have to do with AC - but I have some other things to say quickly, then it's to bed for me.

Luis - Thank you.  Thank you for being my friend.  Thank you for being my love. Thank you for being my life.  I don't know where I would be without you and it's not something I'd like to think too much about.  So let's take a leap into life and see where it takes us.  I'm glad we're on this journey together.  I love you.


Well goodnight my friends. I love you and I'm feeling quite sentimental at the moment.  Time for tears later. 

A quickie.

Here it is, a quarter past midnight and I really should be sleeping.  Iknow it doesn't sound that late to some, but I've got to wake early to work on costumes.  I am building costumes for 'TEXAS' the musical - so I've got lots of work to do.  Good thing is, I'm getting paid.  That's always a plus.  Bad thing is, they'd like most of them done by the 15th.  So we have 12 days to get most of them done.  I doubt it will happen but we'll sure try. 

I don't know that I have anything that is thought provoking or exciting to say tonight, I just thought I'd write.  I'm looking for a summer job - so if you know of one, tell me please.  I've got to save some money.  We're trying to move to New York City in September and everyone knows how expensive it can get, so if we save now - we'll have more time to look for a job there.  ;-)  Well thats all.   My brain is dead right now.  I'll write more after it is revived.  Love ya!

Life, it's funny isn't it?

You know as I get older I realize that I am getting older.  I know it sounds silly, but I sit and listen to people all day talk about certain things and act certain ways.  As I am listening to them I realize that I used to be like them.  And then I realize how much I can't stand them.  I'm glad that I'm older know and I know the important things in life.  So here are a few of my rules for life right now. This is not to say that in five years they might be slightly altered or completely different, but that this is where I am right now.

1.  Love is above all.  No matter how many different ways you look at it, a little love goes a long way.  Some of you won't understand the significance of being in love until later - but to have a horrible day and know that you'll be seeing the one you love soon, makes everything just melt away. 

2.  Family is important.  They'll most likely support you in all you do - no matter what happens. They'll be there through the hard times and the good times, so always keep them close in your heart.

3. Live your life!  My goodness, don't sit back watching life pass you by.  Do what you want to do - be who you want to be and don't let anything stop you.

4.  What other people think is irrelevent.  The people who matter most to you and care the most for you, support you.  Those who don't care for you - THEIR OPINION DOES NOT MATTER! Stop worrying so much about what other people think and stop trying to make them happy.  Make yourself happy and the happiness will follow you.

5.  Saying what you feel is best.  You should always say what you feel and not hide any feelings.  If something upsets you, say it.  If something makes you happy say it.  If you have an opinion about something, don't be afraid to voice it. 

The list of people that I wish I could say grow up to expands daily.  Sadly I think some of them might never grow up.  Today's society has turned today's youth into a bunch of self centered, gossiping, children who care nothing about the good of the world.  Ugh.  I'm tired.  Goodnight.