Out of touch

Sorry I've been so out of touch lately. I went to Dallas last week, and rehersals for the new show started this week. I am so excited about this show. I think I am more excited that I have one of the lead female parts. Well I have to get back to work, unfortunatly, so I'm outta here!

YES!!!!! Freakin Awesome!!

Fortinbras is finally over, which is awesome, I don't have to play a whore anymore. I would be sad that it is over....except....that...I got cast in the next show!! YES!! You want to hear some even cooler news?!?! I got the supporting actress. It's really cool. I have never gotten a part this big. It's crazy. I am actually thinking of changing my major to Theater. I'm not sure what aspect of theater. But my Aunt Cloyce got me to thinking today. The technical side of the theater might be something I'd like to do. So I was thinking about it, and it might actually be what I want to do. I've just got to think seriously about it for a bit. It's not that I wouldn't love to do that type of thing all of the time, its just what exactly do I want to do. I guess it really doesn't matter as long as I just love doing what I am doing right? Thats all that matters. Not how much a year I will be making or anything. What matters is how happy I end up. Right?!?! Well even though it's spring break I have a long week ahead of me. Ciao!!

Well..

So I came online to post yesterday afternoon, and I couldn't get to the web page for some reason. But it's okay, I didn't have anything really important or anything, that I can think of. But yesterday evening, before I had to be back up here for the play, we went to pickup film from Sam's that we put in like a week ago. So I am going through all of these, just expecting them to all be of the trip to Colorado this past summer. Well there was this one roll that the first picture is of me, making this weird face, like I have my tongue stuck out part way. Well, I was like hmm, wonder when I took that. Well I continue to look through them, and the next few pics are of me and I don't know when or why they were taken. Well I then get to these pictures of a party at my old job, with all the people I used to party with. It was so weird. Then there were pictures of Amy. I don't know how I got this film or anything. Then there were pictures of Amy's house at Christmas so I guess that I accidentally ended up with her film when I moved out. There was also a pic of me n Eric, ugh. Anywho. I think I was more upset about me being skinnier then than I am now. In the pic w/Eric, I am wearing this one pair of pants, that I originally bought to fit me perfectly, and in the picture, it was around the time that they were fitting rather baggy. Now I am not even sure if I can even put them on. I hate the stuff I did, but I think I might hate even worse that I have gained so much weight. See I didn't let myself completely go and get discustingly skinny. It looks good, at least in the pic, but now I have all these fat rolls. Now don't get me wrong I've never been the skinny girl, I've always been, let's say thick. I've always had extremely big hips, not fatty wise, just my bones sticking out. Also I've always been alittle more muscular in my legs and arms than most girls. So I never have been little, just not this big. It's gets me depressed. Man. I'm also in 2 weddings coming up, so I've got to do something about this, before I have to stand up in front of everyone looking like a cow. I also have to find someone to take. I don't want to feel like a complete loser. But I don't think that I can find any one who will sit throughout the weddings by themselves. But thats how it always goes, right? Anyways I have to go so I can pick up lunch for my mom, bro, & sis-in-law. They're bringing Hunter! Yea! Gotta love em! Peace!

oh yea, cast list gets posted today. I wasn't nervous throughout the whole two days of auditions, but now that it is time to look to see if I got cast, I'm freaking nervous. It sucks. Also only two more performances of Fort left!! Yeah!!!!

Work perils...

So my day started out okay. Well I guess. I was late to class, but only like 3 minutes late so its not like I really missed much. But then I get to work they have this little sheet that they expect us to read and initial. Ha!! I don't think so. It is telling us what we can and can't do on the first floor. First off let me tell you what they have done. They took the computer off the first floor, so that we can't check in or out books or even get on the web. Whatever right, that's okay I guess. But then they don't give us anything to do in place of that. So we(more me than anyone else I think) would bring things up to do. I bring my cd player, and some random thing. Like last week it was a mum for Sam's door at the hospital, I brought it to work on it. Yesterday it was my scrapbook. Well they have decided that we can't do any of that. No personal buisness with the exception of homework, is what it said. Also it said that even during slow or inactive periods, there is something for us to do. You want to know what that is. What their 'something to do' is? I believe it said, 'Engage the patron'. We have to talk to the people coming in and out of the stupid library. Thats how we should be keepin ourselves busy. Isn't that nice? I really thought so. It is all because they moved in all these professors with PHd's down in the newly renovated offices(which AC supposedly didn't have the money for in the first place). They want the first floor to look 'professional'. Just so they can entertain their friends, and have nice furniture, and not be brought down by the utterly dispicable vision they get from us. The student workers. It's retarded and I'm not even going to go into all of what it said right now, I just have to cool down first. I think I might quit. We'll see. Well I gotta go and study for a midterm I have in 2 hours. Also get prepared for auditions tonight. Hopefully I'll do well.
Adieu!

Just one of those days...

that a girl goes through. Okay I'm done with the singing. But it has been one of those days. Well I really can't say days because I was fine until like 7 tonight. I had a really good day, I went and saw 2 gentlemen of verona with D'los today. So that was fun. But after small groups tonight I just got this feeling. I haven't had it in forever. It's like I dont know whats wrong with me but I feel like I want to cry. I don't know maybe I'm just weird like that. People are back into town this week from being away at college, for their spring breaks. Nice to see some familiar kind faces. It's like this past semester I've been so distanced from so many people. I don't know. Anyways I am going to go so I can get some type of sleep before class and work tomorrow. Yeah.

Whew!!

Well, first 2 shows went off without any problems, so that it is a huge plus. Well I say no problems but I really just mean no major ones. Yesterday, there was a slight pause on stage, due to the fact that I was in lala land and forgot that I was supposed to be speaking. It was so stupid of me, but everything worked out okay. Then the main character, who in one scene is supposed to 'trip' over me, (but really just trip himself), really did trip over me, and I fell over, not cool. Then he 'flung' me out of the bed. I guess that you just have to deal with those things right? I am so glad that I auditioned for this play. Not that this play is special or anything, its just that I realised how much I really miss acting. D'los and Chuck keep asking me to audition for the next play, and I think I will. It's one of those things, you know. You don't do it for a while, and it doesn't seem like you miss it all that much, but then when you do it again, you can't even think why you stopped in the first place. I'm afraid that, I will get like that with the things I used to do. Man I can't believe it has already been almost a year since I've done any of that stuff. It's crazy. It's almost been a year since I got my tattoo also. Things sure do change. I said the same thing when I started those things in the first place. But it is soo true. Just thinking about everything is crazy. My brother is married now and has a beautiful little boy, Mariah is engaged to Ty, Elisheba is engaged to Kyle, I'm not on anything anymore, I've totally changed who I was, and started to hang out with completely different people. Man life is weird. Well I guess I'm going to go, I'm tired and I have to wake up for church in the morning. Plus I'm sick of this laptop. G'night!!

Oh no!!!

Man, the show goes up tonight and I am soo nervous. It could be the fact that I haven't performed in almost 3 years. I just know that I am going to mess up or something. Hopefully all that we do is good. I had an allergic reaction to some makeup on Monday so I haven't been able to wear makeup at all this week. I did have to last night, because it was a full dress rehearsal. It felt weird to put it on. Then after the show when I was taking it off, my face was sorta red. It sucks soo bad. But I guess I'll deal with it. My friend TJ just told me that I need to stop wearing makeup all together, and I wont have to worry about having allergic reactions. I actually might stop wearing it. I think it just depends. I did get a really good complement last night. Our director was talking to me about our last scene and I asked if what we were doing was okay. She said it was fine then goes into this whole shpel about how much she loves my face. She was like you have such an expressive face. It's wonderful. And with the lights on the stage, it looks absolutely beautiful. I want your face. I was like okay....hmm...thanks. Miles was like, you really do have an expressive face. So at least I have that going for me right. An expressive face. Well my dad got promoted to Sergant so he leaves Sunday at 5 in the morning and will be gone for 2 weeks. I think it's going to drive my mom crazy. But we are probably going to go down there the last part of spring break to visit him, and to spend the weekend in Dallas or something. Well I need to do some stuff so I will talk to you later. Auvior!!

Hunter Scott

Finally he has made his grand entrance into this forsaken world. I was the 4th person to hold him. I also got to feed and burp him. Man its so weird. Well I have only gotten 3 hrs of sleep so I am outta here.