today was..eh..

I've been down most of the day. Perhaps its because I didn't have a chance to get out of the house until tonight at like 11. Parents had the car all day. It could also be the fact that I'm alittle depressed about my cousin getting married this upcoming weekend. Not for the fact that she is getting married, more because I don't even have a prospect of getting married. Not even a boyfriend. Which is stupid because I don't really feel like I need a boyfriend you know. I think I just want to date or something. Cause I've never been on a date. How sad. Here I am a month away from being 21 and never been on a date, or in a serious relationship for that matter. I just need to stop thinking about it. I saw Trae last night. Its been a few months. He's crazy as always. Well my night went better though. Justin and I went to Butler's. Then we walk out and there is absolutly no wind or anything. It wasn't too hot or too cold. So we get to talking about it and I say the only thing that could make this night better would be for it to rain. Lightly not downpour. So we are about halfway home, and it starts to rain. Lightly. Not downpour. No wind either. I don't know. There's just something about a calm rain that I love. I feel sorry for those who were actually asleep at two am. my bed calls me.